Valentine's Eve Thoughts...

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day... I am single.

I think technically I am supposed to be some sort of combination of bitter, jaded, lonely, depressed, wallowing or anti-relationships...

Yet, I find myself none of these things.

I am content, happy, grateful, fulfilled, inspired, and loved.

Life is never easy, I say or mess things up all the time. I am too abrupt, too harsh, say things with the entirely wrong timing, miss opportunities to show love to others, and often hurt people with my selfishness.

I do not deserve the love and care of my family and friends. I am not deserving of the prayers and petitions uttered on my behalf, and I am certainly not even close to worthy to have a savior...

Yet, I have all of these things. How can I be anything but content, happy, grateful, fulfilled, inspired and feel completely and utterly loved?!

Let me tell you,
Life is hard,
                 Life is busy,
                                   Life is chaotic,
                                                         Life is messy,
                                                                             Life is painful,
                                                                                                  Life is worth every bit of the challenges.


I am sure one day I will have an amazing man who will blow me away, and I look forward to the Valentine's Day when I have someone special to celebrate (much like birthdays) the love we share, but I find myself completely willing to let that day stay exactly in the timing it will be found in... I am content to let God go before me and lay all of those things in order. Tomorrow I am happy to be exactly where I am.

I have a hope and a future, and I know this, but until "someday" becomes today, I am content to be in my moment and not worry about tomorrow. I am genuinely happy for those who have a reason to celebrate Valentine's Day with someone they love, I feel bad for those who feel like tomorrow is nothing but salt being rubbed in an open wound, and I rejoice with those who are happy to face tomorrow with a joy even in their singleness.

Catch this...
(How many times does it say God's faithful love continues forever?..)

"Give thanks to the Lord, because he is good.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 Give thanks to the greatest God of all.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 Give thanks to the most powerful Lord of all.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 Give thanks to the only one who can do great miracles.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 By his understanding he made the heavens.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He spread out the earth on the waters.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He made the great lights in the sky.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He made the sun to rule over the day.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He made the moon and stars to rule over the night.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 Give thanks to the One who killed the oldest son of each family in Egypt.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He brought the people of Israel out of Egypt.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He did it by reaching out his mighty hand and powerful arm.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 Give thanks to the One who parted the Red Sea.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He brought Israel through the middle of it.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 But he swept Pharaoh and his army into the Red Sea.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 Give thanks to the One who led his people through the desert.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He killed great kings.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He struck down mighty kings.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He killed Sihon, the king of the Amorites.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He killed Og, the king of Bashan.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He gave their land as a gift.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He gave it as a gift to his servant Israel.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 Give thanks to the One who remembered us when things were going badly for us.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He set us free from our enemies.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 He gives food to every creature.
   His faithful love continues forever.

 Give thanks to the God of heaven.
   His faithful love continues forever" (hint it's 26 times in this one passage)

-Psalm 136