Sometimes, when I pause and think about all the random little things going on in my life I cannot help but smile and laugh at the ridiculousness of it all... and, often times I feel like I should be living in a comedy version of the Truman Show! ;)
Things that make me smile today:
Emailing throughout the day with my best friend. - Our conversation are a comedy routine themselves!
Completing a matting/framing project and looking at it, proud that I still have that skill!
Watching a video posted by one of my friends and his wife of someone else's adoption "gotcha" day.
Reading old facebook picture comments from my little brother.
Coffee... Always, always makes me smile :) Especially if the flavor makes your taste-buds dance!
Friends of mine leave tonight for a missions trip to Panama... I'm REALLY excited for them! :)
Random people trying to "help" me... Seriously, it makes me laugh.
Running commentary...
Realizing how ironic God can be with His timing...
I am so very thankful today has turned out like it has... For whatever reason I woke up feeling ok, but as though that state was fragile, and a bad encounter would send me off the crappy crap crap day cliff... Thankfully I had some time to wake up, listen to some great music, and get a cup of coffee before I had to deal with any obnoxiousness in my day.
Still job hunting, nothing really new to report other than, I continue to apply for jobs wherever I find one that interests me.
I was talking with my dad the other day, and it was really nice to just sorta go through my thought process with him. One of the points I brought up was my curiousness at why God felt it was important to tell me two years ago this is how everything was going to go down... My dad said that part of it he thinks is how I am always saying that if God would just give me a basic direction I would feel ok, safe, and secure... The ironic thing is... I do. I am not worried, I know without any doubts this is exactly how things are supposed to play out, and I am doing my best to hang onto the ride, and gracefully handle whatever comes my way. I'm really excited about what God's preparing to do next, even though I am totally blind. :)
Showing posts with label Timing. Show all posts
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Sep 9, 2010
Feb 7, 2010
This is it...
So, What do you do when you feel like things God has been telling you for two years are now upon you?.. I haven't a clue either. lol
I am at this weird point in my life where I can see what God was telling me almost 2 years ago, and I see His hand in each of these little steps, meetings various people, going places, doing things etc.. etc.. I can see how He molded my dreams, and my thoughts... I see each of these steps, so.. what now?.. Well, this is sorta what I see right now as the visual for this.. He told me to sit down. Sit in the darkness, in the midst of night, unable to see, unable to move, and just wait for Him to "come back for me." Not at all like He's left me, but that He's in the process of preparing some things and just needs me to wait for Him without straying or wandering away... Sit and wait. I am not to DO anything, I am not supposed to fix anything, I am not supposed to make things happen.. I am to wait for God and his timing. He told me almost two years ago this was coming. I doubted a bit, mostly because I was not sure I had actually heard from Him or if I had made it all up on my own. I was a bit worried I had just made up a feeling or thought in my head.. but, I prayed and prayed and asked others to pray, and moved ahead as though I had indeed heard from my Savior. I figured if it was not actually from Him, He had no reason to let me fall since I was earnestly trying to seek Him and follow His face.
So, now... Now I have been asked to wait. I understand what He is doing, but I also have NO idea where He is leading me, and I really am not sure how I feel about some of the things that are going to happen in the next little while. But, what I do know is this:
I have never been let down by my Savior.
I have loved every step of my journey thus far.
I have AMAZING family and friends who love me dearly.
I am not God, and so thankful for that!
God knows what is coming, and I do not need to know.
I am seeking Jesus, and in that, He will deal with my mind and heart each step of the way.
I choose Faith and Trust through this all.
I will be ok, God is not sending me careening to my death. :)
I am at this weird point in my life where I can see what God was telling me almost 2 years ago, and I see His hand in each of these little steps, meetings various people, going places, doing things etc.. etc.. I can see how He molded my dreams, and my thoughts... I see each of these steps, so.. what now?.. Well, this is sorta what I see right now as the visual for this.. He told me to sit down. Sit in the darkness, in the midst of night, unable to see, unable to move, and just wait for Him to "come back for me." Not at all like He's left me, but that He's in the process of preparing some things and just needs me to wait for Him without straying or wandering away... Sit and wait. I am not to DO anything, I am not supposed to fix anything, I am not supposed to make things happen.. I am to wait for God and his timing. He told me almost two years ago this was coming. I doubted a bit, mostly because I was not sure I had actually heard from Him or if I had made it all up on my own. I was a bit worried I had just made up a feeling or thought in my head.. but, I prayed and prayed and asked others to pray, and moved ahead as though I had indeed heard from my Savior. I figured if it was not actually from Him, He had no reason to let me fall since I was earnestly trying to seek Him and follow His face.
So, now... Now I have been asked to wait. I understand what He is doing, but I also have NO idea where He is leading me, and I really am not sure how I feel about some of the things that are going to happen in the next little while. But, what I do know is this:
I have never been let down by my Savior.
I have loved every step of my journey thus far.
I have AMAZING family and friends who love me dearly.
I am not God, and so thankful for that!
God knows what is coming, and I do not need to know.
I am seeking Jesus, and in that, He will deal with my mind and heart each step of the way.
I choose Faith and Trust through this all.
I will be ok, God is not sending me careening to my death. :)
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