Feggie Chicken Pasta

Dinner tonight! So yummy!

Mom...

This is a picture of my mom and I from my whirlwind weekend trip last summer.

I know you do not have my mom.. and really that is a sad thing because she is an amazing woman. Let me tell you a little about her...
She is hands down the strongest woman I have ever met. She is not only smart but wise.. She is the epitome of what happens when God is asked, sought after, and encompasses someone's life. She is loving, caring, compassionate, passionate, and has this stubborn unwaivering faith that only comes from being German I am convinced! She comes from this amazing German family with these parents that really instilled in her an understanding that God is God, and we are not.. Her faith in the Lord inspires me constantly. She is the type of mom and wife I want to be some day.

I cannot count how many times in my life I have heard "You look just like your mother" or "she looks like your sister!"... and no matter how many times I hear it, I still get this warm fuzzy feeling inside because it gives me such a unique and personal connection with her.

She is so beautiful, inside and out. She does not even look close to being her age (shh!).. and what few wrinkles she has are these amazing laugh lines that she shows when she is spending time with our family doing whatever.... AND.. If I can look like her when I'm her age.. I'm gonna be stoked!

She is amazing and I love her so much.

Thank you mom for everything you have done, sacrificed, and helped me with throughout the years! I love you more than I can ever tell you, and I am literally thankful every day for you... And, no, I do not take you for granted even one single day. I know how lucky I am!

This Is Stupid...

There comes a point when you realize "this is stupid.." I reached that point yesterday, and it was confirmed again today. There is no reason to actively be putting myself in the middle of this much drama..

I am done and over this.

Yay!...

The last week or so I have been SO TIRED. I mean legit tired, waking up wishing I could sleep for another 5 hours. Lazy lazy lazy weekend.. I should have done more homework, but did not. Should have done more laundry (or maybe any at all), but did not. I should have done more grocery shopping, but did hardly any. Should have done more cleaning in my room/bathroom/around the house, but definitely did not. I was tired, physically, mentally, and emotionally.

Instead I did absolutely nothing Thursday and Friday night, Saturday woke up early, went running (thought I was gonna die.. who runs 15 minutes after they wake up?!), got a mani-pedi, did a very little bit of homework reading, and putzed around forever.. then went to watch the UFC fight and text my brothers... Sunday I didn't even go dancing! Gah.. that's tired!

I also discovered this week that my mouth has been leaning towards going unchecked! Not ok, not good. I spent a long time praying and asking for forgiveness for my unchecked and unkept mouth!.. And begging that God helps me get that back under control!

This week I have been super tired still.. But, I am not as emotionally or mentally tired.. Although, I was expecting to be! I might actually get through this class with a pretty good grade thank you to a classmate and lots and lots of prayer! (Thank you if you've been praying for me!)

Plus, I get to go to Lynchburg (spend a million dollars in gas.. I'm switching to train rides down I think as much as I can).

Life is never easy and always has challenges.. but thankfully God is still my God.

May 1st...

May 1st is quite the day in US history, in 1945 Hitler was announced dead, although he had committed suicide the day before, and in 2011 Bin Laden was announced dead as well. Both victorious days, and days full of what feels like Justice, although really God has the last say in true justice for them.

However, today, May 2nd I cannot help but feel like we have kicked a bee hive.. like this has entered us into some really horrible things to come. I am glad for the closure it brings some people, and thankful that this can put an end to some troubling things... But, our men are still in Afghanistan, Iraq, and many other places spread across the Middle East and around the world. I am proud of our military, so much so... but also feel compelled to pray for them more because this is not the end.. nor is this the beginning of the end.. This is not even the beginning. I feel like things are going to get worse... And, can I say I am really not ok with this feeling.

What I do know:
Yesterday, today, and tomorrow, my God is still God.
Things will get worse as they head towards the end times.
More deaths will come, more weeping, more sorrow... and more chance for God to sweep in and comfort His children.

God will be glorified.

Facts of Life 300's...

Because people have been asking.. Here are the Facts of Life 300's. 

Obviously there are a WHOLE lot of numbers missing, but that's because it is not complete, and the lower numbers have more...

Enjoy the "Facts of Life 300's" (and a bonus)!

 

Fact of Life #304: God never says life won't be full of challenges... 

 

Fact of Life #309: You can't blame other people for not getting over and moving past your own fears, limitations, and anxieties...

 

Fact of Life #310: All anyone has is 5 loaves and 2 fish.. God is what makes that enough for thousands.

Fact of Life #315: Guns don't mean safety, especially for me.

 

Fact of Life #346: Nerds tend to have more imagination....and everyone else is just jealous.

Fact of Life #350: Hiking and rock climbing causes tired bodies that need recovery the next day.

Fact of Life #356: Dinner, walks, and talking with friends (or roomies) who love Jesus can restore a weary soul.

 

Bonus Fact of Life: This morning more than 2,000 years ago my savior Jesus Christ rose from the grave paying for my sin and yours so that we could be seen as perfect, blameless, and holy in front of God.

Give Up Anything...

I have been thinking a lot lately about what God is/has been calling me to do, or what He is calling me to... Sounds like two very similar things, but they are distinctly different in my head, let me explain.

God calling me to do is more of the life vision, goal for me. I have said over and over my total goal is to "love people for Jesus" leaving it ambiguous because I do not believe it is any specific people... Christian or not, guy or girl, white or black or any color inbetween, republican or democrat, American or not, straight or gay, every single person. Sounds like such a cute and fluffy little statement for "cute Krista" to make. Especially when I make the statement with a smile and a giggle... And then the rubber meets the road and it is so ridiculously challenging it evokes no smiles, just hard work and dedication every morning to start new. And, I am really bad at it actually... Now, I know some of you would argue that I am better then I give myself credit for.. but that is because you fall in the category of people that are actually easy for me to love... There are certain people who just grate my nerves, annoy the snot out of me, that I just want to slap every time I see their face or hear their voice, or those that I mistakenly think I am better than, or just the people that are so different from me that I just don't care to try and love them... *sigh* Every day I need Jesus.

So, while I have this basic compass of what God is "calling me to do".. I also am working on understanding what that means specifically. Is He calling me to stay here? Finish school, stick it out in my job, etc.. Or can I pick up and peace out from any or all of the above? What does He want me to spend my minutes and hours working towards?.. What in my life gives Him the greatest glory?.. I dunno, but I sure would like to.

Then there is this slowly boiling thought "What is God calling me to?" Sounds so similar to the previous one that it could be mistaken as the same thing or weird rambling of mine once again... Yet, to me they are very different. You see, God calling me to do something is a bigger life journey type thing.. what He is calling me to is smaller, right now. I have been thinking extensively about this for a while.. ok ok, for about the length of time I have lived in DC (6 months), but more recently, and today's message at church got me thinking about what really is it.. I mean the "rich young ruler" was told to give his riches to the poor, then he can inherent the kingdom of God... Well, while I make a good wage, I don't even own a bed.. haha.. So, clearly my riches are lacking a bit. I do what I can to help people, family.. and am trying to pay off bills.. so what is God calling me to?... I do not know yet, but I am thinking about it because I am sure it is something substantial. I think sometimes we get caught up in the idea that all we have to give up is money.. But, one of the comments today really made me think, it was "God does not call you to give up everything, He calls you to give up anything." Meaning it will be dramatically different for each one of us what we give up for Christ. Hmm...

I will keep you posted as the thoughts formulate.